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 | Ponderance ~~Tick, tock....tick, tock...Don't mind me I am just counting down!~~ |
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Religion: |
Extremely Spiritual |
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Introduction:
I hate filling these things out don't you? You'd be much better advised asking my friends about me than to ask me about me. Here goes nothing: I'm short and feisty and extremely loyal. Wow, I just made myself sound like a dog~~
Tenacious, determined, and hot blooded...Wow, now I sound like a wolf~~
Witty and sometimes snarky, charming yet treacherous if lied to or crossed or you attempt to harm my friends or family. A terrible cook, yet I make great reservations~~
Never a victim, always a survivor. I chart a new path every chance I get.
A fighter for the rights of women and children.
Eloquent, articulate and hard headed.
Passionate, opinionated and dominate without being too domineering..LOL~~
And shy...did I mention shy?
To think that these are only some of my bad traits...Yikes~~~~~ |
Turn ons:
Truth, honesty and respect. That look, the look that makes me melt across the room. Being treated like the cerebral being I am and not a damned barbie doll. I am not made of plastic ffs... |
Turn offs:
Bad breath, liars and playas and those who constantly whine about things that can be changed. Life changes in the blink of an eye. Get with it folks~~~ |
Ideal:
Tall, kind and totally monogamous...Is there such a creature out there? I'm hoping so. I care more about the inner workings than just plain ole good looks. Looks fade but intelligence doesn't unless you are stricken with dementia~~ | |
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Activities:
Riding, riding and more riding. Although it is difficult in the Great White North I try to get in as much as possible. In the event that I am snowed in then we are talking skiing, boarding, snow mobiling and snow shoeing...
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Interests:
Reading I read everything from cereal boxes to dissertations....If it has a letter in it, I have read it!!
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Favorite Music:
Bob Seger, Santana, Blackmore's Nights and Govi
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Favorite TV Shows:
CRIMINAL MINDS and CSI MIAMI and HOUSE and NUMB3RS
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Favorite Movies:
Silence Of The Lambs is a favorite as is the Jagged Edge.
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Favorite Books:
I have a personal library of 3,ooo. So yesss I am a book person
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Favorite Quotes:
If you stand for nothing, then you will fall for anything.
It is what it is,it ain't what it ain't so don't make it what it's not~~
"May those who love us, love us. And those who hate us, may God turn their hearts. And if he doesn't turn their hearts, may he turn their ankles so we'll know them by their limping." - Ancient Celts
"If you're lucky enough to be Irish, then you're lucky enough." - Irish Saying
~~THE KISS....my definition of a kiss is one so breathtaking that it slowly juxtaposes the souls of one another~~
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About Me:
Loyal to a fault, feisty yet ladylike, I am stronger than I look so be careful, be very very careful....Blue eyes that can turn silver when miffed, a mouth that can make grown men cry or pause and reflect on the many facets of women... Blondish hair yet this is subject to change at any time or whim...The rest is me, just me...
Things I have learned:
I have sat across the table from pure evil. It’s part of the job. I have learned that I can dissect and learn the workings of an evil mind. What I can’t understand is that people have absolutely no consideration for others online and think that just because this is a computer and words on a monitor that they can lie, con and play others as though this is a game that must be mastered.
I have learned that the biggest and roughest have the biggest hearts imaginable.
I have learned that there are so many good people online, you just have to separate the brass from the gold.
I have learned that most posers and wannabes will give themselves away within a day or so.
I have learned that the women on BON for the most part have hearts of gold.
I have learned that the men on BON for the most part are decent and upstanding, and it’s just the 10% that give the rest a bad name.
I have learned that appearance isn’t everything….Compassion and caring and kindness go a long way.
I have learned that trust is everything, it takes a while to earn it and 5 seconds to destroy it.
I have learned that I have made a lot of friends on here. Friends that I definitely trust and respect.
I have learned that this is the best place to see all sides of the coin. The good, bad and ugly.
I have learned that I wouldn’t give up this experience for anything. I have learned more about human nature than I have anywhere else, including my profession.
I have learned. That is the crux of the matter. I HAVE LEARNED~~
I do a lot of reading and research in my field, yet the one thing I can't get through my cranium is the fact the men are cowards when it comes to women. Rather than man up and tell it like it is they take the cowards way out and shut women down by either not calling, emailing or IM'ing. WTF.. If you are bored or have met someone else TELL US so we don't feel that we did something "wrong" Sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh are we adults or children playing as adults?
We are mostly all aware of the ROE *Rules of Engagement* used by the the military. I was purusing them again today for some strange reason and it came to mind that I should and could create my own: This is the ROE in a nutshell:In military or police operations, the rules of engagement (ROE) determine when, where, and how force shall be used~
Henceforth I have decided to impliment my own:
1) You are not permitted to call me babe, sexy or anything else derogatory unless I have known you for longer than a month.
2) I an not impressed by what you ride, just that you ride.
3) Rudeness to my friends will be construed as directed to me and will be dealt with in the usual fashion. Although some claim maiming is a tad overkill I prefer to eliminate the problem at the start..
4) Players of both genders should be forced to dwell at the bottom of the GRAND CANYON where I am told there are only 2 ways out. By donkey or helicopter...Enjoy yourselves.....
5) Drama is senseless and should never be practiced. We are here for a short time not a long time and I intend to enjoy every moment I have.
6) There are quite a few of us here who either are suffering or have suffered through hell. Show the proper respect as these people have more strength in their pinkys than most have in their entire bodies.. We are not looking for sympathy we just need to vent on occasion.
7) Special thanks going out to Jackie, Donna, Dona, LaDonna, Tara, Melanie Bliss, Victoria and that incredible lady I only know by the name of DangerousKat.
8) This is the last one for now. If you are playing with hearts, emotions and overall feelings please remember that Kharma is a bitch..
My ROE will not be backed by violence or threats. It is what it is and that's what you have to look forward to...
The Difference Between Strength and Courage
It takes strength to be firm,
It takes courage to be gentle.
It takes strength to stand guard,
It takes courage to let down your guard.
It takes strength to conquer,
It takes courage to surrender.
It takes strength to be certain,
It takes courage to have doubt.
It takes strength to fit in,
It takes courage to stand out.
It takes strength to feel a friend's pain,
It takes courage to feel your own pain.
It takes strength to hide your own pains,
It takes courage to show them.
It takes strength to endure abuse,
It takes courage to stop it.
It takes strength to stand alone,
It takes courage to lean on another.
It takes strength to love,
It takes courage to be loved.
It takes strength to survive,
It takes courage to live.
--author unknown
WHY ALLOW OURSELVES TO BE
CAUGHT IN THE SPIDERS WEB....
WHEN WE HAVE THE WINGS,
AND THE WISDOM....
TO SAVE OURSELVES....
When she wants a hug she will just stand there.
When you break her heart, she still feels it when you run into each other 3 years later.
When a woman is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind.
When a woman is not arguing, she is thinking deeply.
When a woman looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be
around.
When a woman answers, "I'm fine" after a few seconds, she is not fine at all.
When a woman stares at you,
she is wondering why you are so
wonderful.
When a woman lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a woman says that she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future.
When a woman says, "I miss you"
no one in this world can miss you more than that.
When a woman is mean to you after a breakup she wants you back, but she's scared she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever.
Wants vs Needs
I want my life back
I need to take that first step
I want love back in my life
I need to lower the barriers and allow love to come to me
I want my friends to be healthy and happy
I need to believe that GOD will see to it
I want to be able to ride again
I need to realize that all things happen in their own time
I want my body back the way it was before I was blessed with the brain tumor and the damned steroids
I need to work my ass off as this will not happen UNTIL I DO THE NECESSARY WORK THAT IS REQUIRED.
I want the love of my life back.
I need to realize that he is gone forever.
I want to be this happy and at peace for the rest of my life.
I need to realize that this is my choice. I choose how my days will be…
Always remember that as hard as you think you have it, someone/somewhere has it even harder...
R.I.P. Bikertrash73/CW. 9/10/09
Last night I lost my best friend. Bikertrash73 or CW as we all called him. I have known him for years and he was there for me anytime day or night if he wasn't out riding. I loved him. He was a friend, a confidant and the holder of my heart as I can't be trusted as he had said. He was there when I had brain surgery he was there when my daddy died, he was there when my baby brother died. I will always love you CW and I want you back. I will miss hearing his voice saying "Empty Arms Hotel, well hellooooo there and babygurl it will get better soon, and his famous line I must be off now" I can't stop crying....
Until we meet again CW, please keep holding on to my heart as I can't be trusted now for sure.
Just as no man will ever measure up to my daddy,no man will ever measure up to you. I am not eulogising the dead I am merely saying that I have known 3 great men in my life. I have been blessed and honored and I know slept without the meds last night because you were watching over me. I promise you CW I will be very careful with my heart and soul. I won't be reckless and I won't be stupid.
With all my love and all my being, I promise you this.
~~ I love you ~~
~~November 11th/2009
I am not supposed to be out of bed, but this day and the memories it holds for me can not be contained.
WW2 I almost lost my dad before I even had a chance to meet him.
Desert Storm....My brother Sonny almost lost his mind there. For approx 2 years I worked hard with him and his PTSD. The end result is that he is calm and cool but convienced that no woman will want him as he refers to himself as a "killer"
Iraq and Afghanistan. These countries have my undying hatred and contempt. I lost my baby brother in Afghanistan. I received the dreaded phone call in the middle of the night. Johnny was hurt I was told and would be flown out to Germany and then Walter Reed. HURT MY ASS. He came back to me as a triple amputee. HURT. He refused to see me, wouldn't talk, wouldn't eat wouldn't do anything. He died without me holding onto him. The rage and anger simmers within.
Before they discovered the brain tumor, I was kick boxing, running, working out, and punching the bag every chance I had.
Things have changed. I am somewhat limited with what I can do.
The one thing I would love to do, with a smile on my face is to withdraw all our service people and hit that magical button. Colleteral damage be damned.
I will not be disuaded. I will not argue my own beliefs, I WANT JUSTICE AND REVENGE.
GOD help me for these thoughts.
Life is truly ironic~~
I noticed an email I had received a few days ago. My eyesight is blurry now and the date is rapidly approaching so I try and stay off the computer as much as I can. Anyhow, back to this email. It was a typical hate email from a person who will remain unnamed as I have better manners than s/he does. It asked me to remove myself from a ride which I did as soon as I read the email. After all, I am a lady unlike some.
But the point of this is to say, life is way too short to let the haters rent space in my head. Life is hard, yes, life can be cruel, yes. But it can also be joyous and happy. Like so very many of you here I have suffered hardships aplenty, I CHOOSE to forge ahead. I refuse to indulge those who play games and prefer to associate with those who are genuine. Alas, it is with true regret that because of my morals and stand on life that I have let quite a few people go. Or if you prefer, they have let me go.
All in all, life is being kinder and gentler than I expected these days.
I shall disappear for a few weeks, but will return.
Blessed be to all those I like and respect....
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