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Thank Slugger and Em..I am going to be just fine for sure! Im wonderin how little Taylor is doing...anyone know?

Sassy I am sending healing energy to Taylor. How did the surgery go? Lot's of love to you......Em

Tweety: Congrats GF!! Keep healing and thinking positive...you've come a long way in the past few months I am so proud to call you friend!! xoxo

MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU TWEETY...KNOW YOUR GOING TO BE FINE

Wanted to let you all know that I have gotten all my test results back from scans(Mugga, PET, CT) No cancer to be seen! I am so elated I almost feel high! (probably the drugs Im on lol) I start chemo tomorrow and am positive I will breeze through this next year. The love, prayers and thoughts I have received from you all has given me strength beyond what I could ever express in words. I love you all very much. God Bless, Tweety

Father, Thank you for all your blessings. please bless Taylor and here family with peace, health and recovery. In Jesus name Amen

Will ya'll say a prayer for my 4 yr old Granddaughter Taylor whom is having surgery today in Knoxville, KY. Thank ya'll so much, means a lot.

Unbelieveably, at this time in my life, a man has found me that can love me for me..(even though I keep loosing (parts) lol I am overwhelmed with the support I am gettng from him and my family and all of you! I can not fail! Peace love and joy to each and everyone of you. My heart is full Tweety

Hey Yall, havent been online coz my puter is down. But I wanted to come in and see how everyone is doing and say thanks for all your paryers and continued support. thansk Em and Pier dancer, you gals are special indeed. Ok, so in reading the thoughts here I see that someone is having a bad day? I guess we all have bad days but, no need to spew your negativity all over everyone else. positive thoughts and honest caring is all that is needed to lift the soul. sweet jersey, ill join you in prayin for this person or persons havin this bad day... ok done amen. love to you all and hope to see you all again real soon! xoxoxox

Thanks to Em, prayers to Tweety and all who need them, and hugs to all of us left behind by the loss of someone we loved...

There is nothing like the power of prayer~I truely believe in it~so i will say one Em for you and the people u are speaking about. Amen

You all are in my prayers for healing in this life! Oct. 24/25 is an anniversary of a crisis 14 years ago that could have taken my life. I used to fear these dates cause I thought for years it still would, but NOT anymore!!! I learned recently that fear stands for: False Evidence Appearing Real & luck stands for Laboring Under Correct Knowledge! I hope & pray for each of you to have lots of L.U.C.K. & no F.E.A.R.!!!

May God heal them and make them strong in times of grief.

Prayers and loving thoughts to all....

I want to do a little something different tonight....I want to send out positive thoughts to those who just don't know how to be nice. To those who do not have nice things to say about other people or themselves for that matter. For those who gossip about others. For those who are jealous of their partners ex's and talk bad about them every chance they get. For those who ridicule others and make judgements. For those who can not accept that this is a beautiful world we live in no matter what. I want them to know that we are lucky if we wake up in the morning and also lucky if we even feel pain or not. The law of attraction will bring you nothing but pain and negativity into your life is that is all you do is live and breathe it. Relax, think positive thoughts, be happy to be alive and know that I am sending you positive thoughts and prayers no matter where you are or who you are.....

I will be praying and sending blessings your way too Tweety for both you and your son.

Feeling is mutual baby girl, your incredible Em! thanks for the love, support and strength you give us all. Im just a email or a phone call away should you need a shoulder, ear or whatever. Mucho love Tweety

My Angel......I didn't realize it was TODAY although I have been thinking alot about you....sending you my strength and love today and always. Love you girl.....

Today has been one year since the love of my life left this world... I just wanted to thank you, EM, for being there with your positive thoughts when I needed support. I visit this page on a regular basis when I need to feel uplifted, and here I am again today. Because of people like you, I am able to hold my head up and remember how I need to be here on this earth for the other people he left behind, and to hold on tight to his memory. Thanks again.

So blessed to have met you last weekend Tweety! You are incredibly beautiful inside and OUT!! When ever you're feeling down , think about me and know that you can gather strength from me ANYTIME GF!! xoxoxo

It means that I will have to fight very hard to get rid of it, chemo will be for a whole year and then hope it doesnt come back. I still dont know if its spread, will find out next week with my muga scan and pet scan. Thanks for the prayer tripp! I appreciate it very very much! Love to you all Tweety

sENDING OUT PRAYERS TO YOU TWEETY!!

What does that mean Tweety?? Hugs

Found out yesterday, my cancer is Her2 positive 3+, if you would keep prayin ok? Im a mess today.

Wendy,I love you too baby girl! Thanks for bein there for me! Your pretty courageous yourself!!! Takes one to know one! (((HUGZ)))Tweety

Hey Tweety, Just wanted to tell the people on this site what a remarkable, strong and courageous woman you are and I am so proud to call you my friend. Keep the faith and know that I am with you all the way! Love, Wendy

thanks Em, your super duper yourself baby girl

♥ hugs ♥ hugs ♥ hugs ♥

Sending him super duper strength today Tweety!! (thanks everyone for your kind words)

Finally told my only child, my son, that I have cancer. Man was that tough! I ask ya'll to pray for him, we are very close and he's in a tough situation right now. Thanks for all the support, L/R Tweety

Em your something else , just look at how one person like you can bring a mulitude of caring people together . your awesome and I thank you for all that your doing . Love2ride , Just know this my friend and friends Psalm34:17 The righteous cry , and the Lord heareth, and delivereth them out of ALL their troubles. 18 The Lord Is Nigh unto them that are of a broken heart and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit. The Bible says and I believe It every word of it, wow i feel so blessed that i can come here and be a part of this page . Thanks To everyone for sharing and caring .

Em... I'm quoting something you said in an earlier post. I found some comfort in your words, after losing Gary - I too went through those feelings, and some days still do, but after reading this, it gave me something else to consider.. Listened to a wonderful service at church today. I attend at a Spirtualist camp and the message was so powerful. He said that when someone we love is hurt or passes many of us feel regrets that we didn't do enough for them, say the right thing or see them more often.... He said we are all on a journey that will happen no matter what......that maybe, just maybe......we weren't supposed to do those things..that perhaps it would have interrupted with the journey... I found this very profound and very comforting as well. I do what I can in my life and sometimes my own journey prevents me from doing all that I want or all that I feel for other people. Unless I have intentionally ignored someone (which wouldn't happen) I will no longer have regrets and know that my part in their journey happened exactley the was it was supposed to.. May this week bring strength and courage to everyone who reads this and needs that little extra boost..."

YW! and thanks Tweety I liked that! Sending ya'll positive energy today~!

Thank you Emrld...

If your going to pray, why worry. If your going to worry, why pray?

Worry is the darkroom in which negatives can develop.

Loves2ride, it's interesting that in a sense it is the same process. You go through all the same stages and are left with unanswered questions. Sounds like you have many angels looking after you....including me because remember the email you sent me? lol well here you are in a positive environment with many angels to help guide and support you in your journey. Hugs

Thank you Emrldeyz for this site. It is very encouraging. I have lost a lot of people in my life, most have passed on to the next. Recently I have lost my husband, not to death but to divorce. I have held on as long as I could and now must just let things be as the universe wishes. I was approached by a stranger yesterday at Costco, a very beautiful older woman and she told me that sometimes the universe does for us what we refuse to do for ourselves and for me to let go. I had never saw this woman before in my life and she had no ideal who I was. This was very comforting as I had just prayed yesterday morning for a sign from God to show me what to do in regards to hanging on or letting go of my marriage. I lost my last husband to death and in a sense I must go through the same grieving process as before. Please pray for strength for me as I do through this. Thank you.

Just a note to say thanks for the thoughts and prayers and all the great encouraging writings here. I love the story about the horses Sassy...how cool is that..love folks with kind hearts for animals and the idea that we all need to be the guide sometime or the guided at others. I am doing very well and keeping my spirits high. I am sure this is do to the help of those praying and sending positive htoughts of healing power my way, as well as to others. gary, I truely hope you will ehad Em's advise and take time for you. Its important. Imk sorry your having to go through this difficult time in your life, loosing a parent is tough enough, watching them go slowly is tougher. I am praying for you and your mom...God Bless your hearts, minds, body and spirits. L/R

Sassy I love this thank you for sending it to me and posting it too! It will speak volumes to someone, somewhere and just when they needed it!!

Just up the road from my home is a field, with two horses in it From a distance, each horse looks like any other horse. But if you stop your car, or are walking by, you will notice something quite amazing.... Looking into the eyes of one horse will disclose that he is blind. His owner has chosen not to have him put down, but has made a good home for him. This alone is amazing. If you stand nearby and listen, you will hear the sound of a bell. Looking around for the source of the sound, you will see that it comes from the smaller horse in the field. Attached to the horse's halter is a small bell It lets the blind friend know where the other horse is, so he can follow. As you stand and watch these two friends, You'll see that the horse with the bell is always checking on the blind horse, And that the blind horse will listen for the bell and then slowly walk To where the other horse is, Trusting that he will not be led astray. When the horse with the bell returns To the shelter of the barn each evening, It stops occasionally and looks back, Making sure that the blind friend isn't too far behind to hear the bell. Like the owners of these two horses, God does not throw us away just because we are not perfect Or because we have problems or challenges. He watches over us and even brings others into our lives To help us when we are in need. Sometimes we are the blind horse Being guided by the little ringing bell of those who God places in our lives. Other times we are the guide horse, helping others to find their way..... Good friends are like that ... You may not always see them, but you know they are always there. Please listen for my bell and I'll listen for yours. And remember.... Be kinder than necessary- Everyone you meet is fighting Some kind of battle.. Live simply, Love generously, Care deeply, Speak kindly.... Leave the rest to God

Gary my heart goes out to you. What strong family values you have taking care of your mother all these years. It shows so much compassion, integrity, respect and love. I bet your heart is as big as the Grand Canyon. Just remember to take some time out for YOU because your mom's journey is going to happen no matter what. Remember the saying "one day at a time"? That's what you need to do and also don't wait until you are too overwhelmed to ask for help or take time out. Sending you strength today and much love. Em

Hello, My name is Gary. I live in mid town Tulsa. I just returned from taking my brothers ashes to Calif. on my motorcycle. I was gone for a month. He has been caregiver for my mom the last 11 yrs. I took care of her for ten yrs. prior to that. She has osteoporosis and now developed Alzheimers too. Needless to say, my life has been in a bit of turmoil lately. Now my Mom is in a hospice and my sister lives in Georgia. I'm trying to figure out how to deal with all this.

Listened to a wonderful service at church today. I attend at a Spirtualist camp and the message was so powerful.

He said that when someone we love is hurt or passes many of us feel regrets that we didn't do enough for them, say the right thing or see them more often....

He said we are all on a journey that will happen no matter what......that maybe, just maybe......we weren't supposed to do those things..that perhaps it would have interrupted with the journey...

I found this very profound and very comforting as well. I do what I can in my life and sometimes my own journey prevents me from doing all that I want or all that I feel for other people. Unless I have intentionally ignored someone (which wouldn't happen) I will no longer have regrets and know that my part in their journey happened exactley the was it was supposed to..

May this week bring strength and courage to everyone who reads this and needs that little extra boost....

Thank you emrldeyz for starting this blessed page! I hope this page continues past the end date into infinity! Like others here I'm hurting but also very blessed. Four years ago I was planning my funeral in my mind; but God had other plans! In the last three plus years I've regained a lot of my independence and some of my health back. Now it may be possible for me to ride, finally! The Scriptures say we are not to forsake gathering together-it does not say where or how. Ya'll Stay safe & have a good one!

Connie my friend, sending you the strength and determination to make it through after losing your dad...I just found out...thinking of you and let me know if I can do anything...xoxox

James 5:13 Is any among you Afflicted? let him Pray, Is any merry? let him sing psalms. 14 Is any sick among You ? let him call for the elders of the church; and let them pray over him , annoiting him with oil in the name of the Lord. 15 And the prayer of faith shall save the sick and the Lord shall raise him up and if he have committed sins , they shall be forgiven him .16 Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much. God Bless You all and by the spirit of the Holy Ghost ,and in the name of Jesus Christ ,I pray the peace that passes all understandin into your life your family and your Homes . God wrap your loving arms around the sick and Father let them be healed in your name to proclaim there healing there Mircle from you Lord . Father you see and know ever need that has been written on this page ,God you are the One True God that can and will bow down your ear to the sick and the lonely and will supply there every need . Let Your healing virtue flow from this page Lord and Sir let them reconize that its you and you only . In the Name of your Son Jesus I Pray . Every Need Lord Amen

It's the power of prayer that brings so many together as a community of faith. There is no rhyme or reason that misfortuen hits any family...I know, as I lost my husband to cancer just a litle over 3 years ago. If it had not ben for friends and their prayers for me..I would not have made it through the very tough time. So, my love, my heart and my prayers go out to all who are suffereing as well as their families..

Continued prayers, Tweety~

thank you harleywildtoo, wendy and emrldeyz...you are so right about the power of prayer and the power that support gives you. my friends here have been sooo fantastic that I dont feel alone and am makin it through all this with an unbelievable sense of caring. today I was told I would have to have my breast removed by partial radical mastectomy coz its very large tumor. wont know til after post op labs just how far it has spread but you know what I am holding on too? the fact that my mom is a survivor of this awful disease at 72..if she can do it so can I!! and I can still have reconstructive surgery after all treatment is done. thanks to the american cancer society and the susan g komen foundation and the Breast and Cervical Cancer Screening Program of Florida..referred to as (BCCP)...I dont have to die. If you know anyone in my postion, that has no insurance and is over the age of 50..let them know about this wonderful program. thank you all for your well wishes and prayers..it means the world to me. L/R Tweety (Stacy)

The power of prayer enables us to become centered and anchored in a belief and rooted in a Truth, which is stronger and deeper than the day-to-day truths we struggle with.........as we unite in this power we no longer feel alone and ultimately feel like nothing can defeat us....

My wish is that everyone who has visited this page will leave feeling more alive and more hopeful then the moment before they got here.......

Special love and light to Tweety....you have many angels above and on this earth who are watching over you...today and always...

Em ~ the power of prayer....immeasurable

Wendy ~ eloquently and beautifully stated....

((((HUGS))) to you Tweety. Be strong and have faith!

I run an Oncology Pharmacy at a local hospital. I was touched by what everyone has written here and I my thoughts and prayers go out to everyone. I must say Cancer is a terrible disease and sometimes terminal. But working with patients every day I see the ones that wont make it and they're the ones alone in their room and looking solemn and they have given up....Then I see the others where their is a loved one or special friend that took the time out to be with them, to rub their back, hold their hands or just to be there with them. The difference is incredible and I have to say most of them fight the battle with more courage then I've even seen...WHY??? because they are loved and know it. Even if life is busy, hectic or just plain crazy for you, make that special someone in your life know that you are proud of them for fighting....it makes a world of difference and I say my little prayers for my patients every day that God with give then the strength to accomplish this horrific disease...and GOD BLESS YOU, EMRLDEYZ for posting this site, you are an amazing person!

If you all wouldnt mind, I need prayers right now. I was diagniosed with breast cancer yesterday. thank you

That little girl singing Amazing Grace has brought tears to my eyes...sending all my strength, love and hope to all of your that have spoken on this page and to all out there who have not yet found this page....

My love goes to my own father who was moved out of ICU and into a regular room today and to Tim1956's father is battling cancer and to Diane in a hospital recovering from a horrific accident and to Toni and Connie's stepdad and SNORTH and Vamboo too.....

...and a special hug to Frumpy who watches over us all now.....

Thanking you Angels and friends(don't need to mention in abrevs, or names, ...what would we do without our Angels.. Don't even think about that one.. lighting candles till they called the PD on me... oh Lordy, Blessings to you all.... Prayers just got me thru the craziest ride of my life.., I love you all, Your Bella Babe.... In Pa..

Prayers & Blessings to all who need them...sending an Angel for you all.

Sorry to hear, Gulf...my sympathies to Frumpy and those who loved him...my prayers to Diane for a full recovery...

We also lost another biker/brother and PMS member this weekend. Anthony (Frumpy) Nalbone, age 55 and his passenger Diane Oglesbee, age 45, were headed north on 95A Friday night when a young woman in an SUV headed south made a left turn in front of them. They were both thrown from the bike. Frumpy died at the scene and Diane is ,last reported, in stable condition at Sacred Heart ICU. We should send our thoughts and prayers out to the families. This is yet another case of "I didn't see the motorcycle".

Prayers to all who need them, especially Snorth & Vambo...

Please send your prayers out for my daughter Toni to be free from meth and to be a mommy to her three beautiful children... and to get them back someday

Great news, Connie...continued prayers for your Dad, Dixie's Mom, our own Snorth, and all else who need them...hugs*

I do not know you but my prayers are with you and your family!!! I hope that you recoop soon SNORTH!!!!

Some good news...biopsy was negative. He is still as orange as a sweet potato...has temporary stent in place gonna have to have more surg to place a permanant stent.

More peeps to pray for... Snorthy, Buzzard, Connie's stepdad and Dixie Doodle's Mom & Grand Baby...praying that today is the day the healing begins

I am praying hard for the many wonderful peeps who are suffering right now. My dear friends Snorth & Buzzard and for Connie's stepdad, I hope that they stay strong and recover quickly.

sending positive thoughts and prayers for my friend Snorth and asking everyone to send the same for my stepdad.He has been in hospital since last Wed and going back in surgery today he is 88 and very weak.

My prayers to healing and Gods love go out to Snorth have strength and believe in his will is all he asks of us. May he heal you physically and let you feel his love. God Bless! Wildheart2 Barb

Hello everyone. I am Blessed to be still here living and walking. I'm lonely, but that's most likely due to my own doing. I seem to hibernate in my place and I just don't have the energy I used to have to go out alot and party. Sorry, but I think I'm the one suffering because of it. I really would like to meet a companion. One who doesn't drink too much. I know God is with me always, and I trust that and have all the Faith in Him. I still would enjoy a companion to do things with or just do nothing with!!! Thanks for all your prayers and thoughts.

God is with you. He is on your side. He has your best interest at heart, and He is working to bring restoration and peace to every area of your life. Keep standing, keep believing, and keep doing the right thing because the One who collects your tears will restore every broken place in your life!

Hi ev1, I haven't been her in awhile. Prayers to all!! My leukemia is climbing slowly and I'm taking one day at a time. I'm a surviver of many things and I know that God will get me through this too. I want to thank ev1 that prays for the power of prayer is great. So, may all Gods Angels hoover over you and keep you safe.

Prayers going out to the family of Bruce Rossmeyer, Daytona Harley dealer, dies in motorcycle accident. RIP Bruce... http://www.news-journalonline.com/NewsJournalOnline/breakingnews/bruce073009.htm

Hey you guys, I wanted to let you all know that one of our brothers of the road was killed last night in Leesburg. I don't know his name as more than Tom aka Big Red. We were driving our kids to the skating rink and came upon it. It was horrific, his bike was crumbled up in a pile and he was on the road as they were giving him CPR. He died at the scene. It was AWFUL and his passenger was thrown from the bike and air lifted to ORMC, I don't know her name. Please keep their families in your thoughts and prayers. My heart broke for all involved. Please ride safe. That could have been me or anyone else....

blessed be to everyone.....

Also.......for those dealing with chronic pain....especially my friend onewindwithfist..cmf. who is struggling with his MS......thinking about you all too and surrounding you with love and strength...

Sending strength to Marjie aka Rain Dancer's son who battled for his life and she just brought him home.....top photo today....deserves the spot...Hugs

T said it's her knee--really messed up. Thought it might be something else, but still needs lots of Positive energy!! Thanks Y'all!

Hey, y'all, Little Bit (T)/Little Cuban Gypsy is not doing good again, according to header note! Please send her lots of loving energy and let her know she is loved! Prayers abound, sis!! Love ya!! We are family.

all good people in difficult circumstances never forget that the rest of us all have you in our thoughts and prayers.

Sending positive thoughts and prayers to you Designing Donna, GOOD LUCK ON YOUR INTERVIEW tomorrow...:) and please keep the safety of our men and women in the service in our thoughts and prayers..

Correction--'best' friends---thanks so much!

You all are the beest friends I could ask for. My nerves have been shot with no jobs out there, $0 income, and then this. BUT, I am going to bed tonight with hope and positive thoughts because of your kind words and prayers! I haven't smiled in a week except now, and just in time--I have two job interviews tomorrow, so I need a 'happy face'!! God bless you!

I ditto the prayers and blessings to Shaylee, DD and Jim, Jesse, JJ's Mom.......and to Wendy's friend and to Shauna, Claire and her daughter and VintageLady....and everyone else who needs special reinforcement and strength tonight....

Prayers and blessings to baby Shaylee, to DD & her Jim, to our friend Jesse, to JJ's Mom...to all who are suffering or know someone who is...and to my girl Em...for this page...for her heart...for just being the person she is...proud to be your Sister*

OH Donna I am sorry to hear the news. Cancer inevitably stirs strong feelings of fear, anger, sadness and many others. My say is give him some space to sort this out but I also think you should always let him know in many little ways that you care and are there for him....cause one thing he is probably feeling is ALONE. I know you girl and you have a heart as big as the Grand Canyon and it's my personal opinion that you keep your friendship blossoming in every way that you know how. Positive thoughts and prayers go out to Jim (and you) tonight. Sending my love and strength...Em

My sweetie, Jim, got his cancer back, and has decided to completely isolate, and just be with his parents. NO friends or loved ones other than the parents. We had such a good thing going, and I hate to see him alone, and I have no say in it. Hurts to see him scared and isolated, but he beat it before, so I have to let him be. I'm so friggin' sad. I've never dealt with this before. Please keep him in your prayers.

Wendy, still praying for your friend.....any new updates?? Hugs to you!

-Extra prayers for Shaylee for a quick recovery. Bless her little heart.

I don't know who this little girl is but her name is Shaylee and she is 3 yrs old and was attacked by a Pit Bull and is in bad shape. I saw pictures of her in top photos and my heart goes out to her and also her family. Today I give all my strength to this little girl that she may heal and go on living her little girl life.......as all children should.......Hugs and love to you Shaylee

Just came across this page. It leaves me with a heavy heart hearing of all the recent heartaches among Bon friends/relatives this past year. Deaths, bike accidents, illnesses. You never know what tomorrow will bring. My prayers always include my Bon family. Faith ~ hope ~ courage ~ strength ~ positive thoughts & much love to you all ...

Just a little something for those who have recently experienced the death of a loved one....

Love is stronger than death.
So I must be content to know that
love is not affected by death--
it doesn't end, it doesn't diminish,
it doesn't change.
Instead, love is immortalized
and eternalized through death.
And the possibility of that love ever
being damaged or broken
is eliminated forever.
I'll put my trust in love.

- Mary Hollingsworth

Wendy I have been praying for your friend all day.....xoxoxo

i pray daily for all my friends and family and for YOU who is reading this!!!!

To my dearest Maggie.......may you forever feel Jen's presence through the beauty of nature and your love for her that encompasses your whole being....

Ever felt an angel's breath in the gentle breeze? A teardrop in the falling rain? Hear a whisper amongst the rustle of leaves? Or been kissed by a lone snowflake? Nature is an angel's favorite hiding place. ~Carrie Latet

my heart and hugs out to Pierdancer, with arms wide open,your angel will always be with you.

Steel Quill my heart goes out to you. I am not amazed at how much strength and love that surrounds us on this site........ I am overwhelmed by it.....and we are incredibly lucky to be able to share our deepest thoughts, fears and sorrows with so many who know and feel our pain.....may the world surround you with love this day and all days to come.. Em

Thoughts and prayers to all of those who have lost a loved one and are dealing with grief and heartache that follows. We lost our son on February 7, 2009 at the age of 23. May you cherish in the memories and forever keep their spirit alive. I would also like to send my prayers to those who are suffering or coping with an illness. May you find the strength needed in your recovery.

sending them out to Maggie and her family today!

love to beautiful pierdancer who now has an angel protecting her.

i have never met big m but it is obvious he was loved by many and my heart goes out to all who were lucky enough to have been graced by his prescense.

We never know where or paths of live will lead~We are given life with no guarantees of time~Our souls reflects and shine outward to those around us~ The journeys we take always lead us to people that touch our hearts and always remain in our memory's~ I send loving light to all~in their times of need~

(tips my beer to the side and pours some out ) ride free on your new journey we will miss you ...... RIP BIG M

I only met Big M @ leesburg... he was a sweet guy. Im so sorry for the loss....

Thoughts & prayers to all that are suffering at the loss of Mikey Big M. He will be greatly missed but our suffering goes on at this loss. Hugs to all! Dorothy

Prayer Awareness
by Miriam Teichner
God--let me be aware.
Let me not stumble blindly down the ways,
Just getting somehow safely through the days,
Not even groping for another hand,
Not even wondering why it all was planned,
Eyes to the ground unseeking for the light,
Soul never aching for a wild-winged flight,
Please, keep me eager just to do my share.
God--let me be aware.

God--let me be aware.
Stab my soul fiercely with others' pain,
Let me walk seeing horror and stain.
Let my hands, groping, find other hands.
Give me the heart that divines, understands.
Give me the courage, wounded, to fight.
Flood me with knowledge, drench me in light.
Please--keep me eager just to do my share.
God--let me be aware.
~~~~~For Big M, Em's daughters, Shauna, J's Mom and all the others on this journey we call life that need our prayers....
God Bless You All!!

Blessings & hugs to all of the CMF family today...and to Mikey's family & friends...ride free Little Brother...

sad day for CMF'S, the loss of a brother Big M...... he was a good guy, he was funny,kept ya smiling...going to miss his antics...soo sad...

Would also like to extend those positive thoughts and prayers to all family and friends of Big M. He passed early this morning and did not suffer.....he touched many lives around him and my hope is that we can all remember his wicked smile and devious laughter forever....

Sending those positive thoughts and prayers your direction VintageLady......

Thanks for the prayers!!! You are all in my prayers as well!!! There is definitly POWER in prayer!!!

My dad has lung cancer and an uncle with pancreatic cancer. Sad to see two such robust men wasting away, but my prayers to them and to all who are afflicted with any cancer. And to you as well Shauna... recuperate soon!! And as I read on down... it seems there are many wise and wonderful people within this page... hugsss to everyone... Wendy :)

Shauna, always sending you prayers sister.....you always made me smile when I was down....xoxoxox

I could use some prayers my sisters and brothers. Still recuperating from our bike accident on March 7th....

glad to hear it is all good news J....and YES,there is power is prayers!!! I know.... :O)

YAY!! Wonderful news J!

You know you have mine, Jeannie...you, your Mom and all of those who love her...hugs*

Sending some love out to wildchild tonight!! Stay strong and get your butt to Florida GF!!

Remember everyone........Drama is only created in your response to peoples words or actions! Make the most out of life and react positively! You will be surprised at the outcome!

They have taken away the ability to send group messages!!!!!!! So I will just post it here: Change your life!
Change Your Life

I think it is ok to allow yourself to make mistakes. Making them often helps teach us what is right.
Trying to be perfect leads to perfectionism which most people agree is not healthy. Leading a narrow existence also leaves our experience of life emptier then if we were to experiment and broaden our horizons.
Also when we are not trying to be perfect we don't have overly high expectations in others and we become more tolerant and accepting of others. We can't know everything and we should be somewhat curious about what we don't know, at least for the sake of our mental health.
We also learn forgiveness in the process and also might find out just how wrong we were all along.

Morgan Green ©

Ya know exactley what Andria has to go through in the beginning of school because you just finished that portion Calibrater!!!! woo hoo congratulations!!! I am so proud of you!

Em congrats to you BOTH!!! You have gone thru so much together this year!!! Look mom!!! You tiredless devotion is starting to pay-off!!! WAY-To-GO!!!!!!

Thanks Christie! Littlebit I always miss you GF!! I also want to take this time to send strength to Claire's daughter who has a long road ahead of her......I am praying for her everyday. Hugs to you all in need today!!!!!

congrats Em to you and your daughter. Im sure you are very proud of her...

i hope and pray that all of my wonderful freinds have peace, love. i want ya'll to know that even if i am not at the events my thoughts and prays are with yall. love yall littlebit CMF

Yay! Perfect occupation for her...same big heart as her Mom...you go girl! Love & Hugs*

Today I am sending out my positive thoughts to my oldest daughter who starts nursing school tomorrow~! What a journey it was for her to get into school and to venture into the unknown. I am so proud of her!!

and the heart ach begins again!

All my thoughts and prayers to Joyce's family and friends..another beautiful angel up above to watch over us! RIP Joyce!

Blessings to Joyce's family & friends...may her light shine down on us all...

my prayers are with joyce family and freinds.Love yall

My thoughts and prayers are with Joyce and her family. May she rest in peace.......

Yesterday a friend of mine passed away. Some people only met Joyce once and some several times and some many many times and others knew her inside and out. Every single one of these people will feel a great loss as she touched their heart in one way or another. We all deal with pain and loss at different levels but one thing remains the same. Pain is Pain. Loss is Loss. My positive thoughts and prayers extend to all family and friends that she mezmerized with her sparkling eyes, contagious laughter and profound deepness of her beauty.

May your Angels surround you and hold you tight. For all of us in Gods dear light. That the day ahead can fill the sight with great things of the day and of the night. Bless you all on this beautiful day!

...and something I'de like to share with ya'll....people will say to me often that what they are going through is nothing like what I go through with my daughter and her head injury....I say that myself when I think of my father who is a quadriplegic....NO what we go through might not be physically the same but deep down inside it brings us all to the same sort of feelings....hoplessness....sorrow....pain....and emotionally I don't know how you can rate that on a scale of 1-10 cause you can't. Pain is pain, hurt is hurt, trauma is trauma, death is death. We are all one here on this page no matter our circumstances and we can certainly understand eachother.....that's why we're here. On another note I apologize for being absent as always struggling with various issues and hospital stays with my own daughter......Peace to you all, Em

Yes Serene of course!

Hi Serene, I have kept all of your loved ones in my Prayers. I hope that you get good news about Michael. It is a very hard thing to deal with and I'm there for you. Love Wanda

Hi Everyone, I have a small favor to ask. Could each and everyone of you please keep my friend Steve and his brother Michael in your prayers. While incarcerated Michael hung himself on Sunday and is now in a coma and has brain damage. The chances of his recovering are almost zero but prayers sure can help the family get through this trying time.---Thanks to everyone....have a blessed day!

Just an update....I went to the doctors on the 19th of January and found out that my white blood cell count had gone back up to 63000 and was trying to be aggressive, but my counts are staying at the same level range, so I am thankful for that. purplebiker, God bless you with your new message board and that it gives lots of comfort to those that need each others help to cope. God will be there for me and all of you here needing the warmth of a good hand to guide us thru these trying times. Pease be with you all!!

Due to my son's death 11-08-08. I have started a message board for parents that have lost a child. It is a grief no parent should have to endure and different than losing a spouse or parent. All are welcome to contribute http://my-calorie-counter.everydayhealth.com/Forum_Message_Detail.asp?TokenId={1A583B12-086C-49AB-A21E-D21987CE55ED}

wicked and skitzokitty, i,m proud of you , sounds like you have both come a long way, god bless you both.if there is anything i can do please let me know. i understand the decisions that are to be made as i,m a cancer surviver, and every day i thank god i can wake up. still a long road to go for me. my prayers and thoughts are with you both.

god be with you jen,and may your illness recover and bring you to a safe journey in your life, god be with you.

to everyone out there,my friends,family,our soliders that defend us,and all the chrildren in the world. as i ask this night that god protect you all,and keep you in his loving arms.that may all the burdens you carry be eased with love,kindness,and faith.may all the pain you endure,be at rest with peace and endurence.may all that have gone before us,welcome yourself into the arms of the lord.may of america be safe in our time of turmoil,and may the lord bless everyone.

God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you NEED. To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be.

my child and grandchild where cut out of a car by the jaws of life when a truck ran a stop sing hit them. her car flipped a few time in a field here in camden and baby star was hanging from her car seat. by the grace of God and prayers of friends and family they lived and recoverd. this site can be a powerful prayer chain and a lot of good can come to every one here. i pray that every one here will be blessed by Gods love and mercy.

Thank you Ladybug...

Hey Jenn, Be sad to see you go, but God Bless you and keep you in is sight. Peace be with you!

I thank each and everyone of you for all the prayers and support for me thru the last few months. Things have taken a very bad turn in my life, and I am deleting my profile on here. I rarely can get out and go to events anyways, and I really was on here to get involved in events and runs. I met sum awesome friends on here, but there is no need for me to have a profile to keep in touch. If you would like to stay in touch with me please email me, and I will send you my number, emails and other websites. I just really don't have the time and the strength to keep up w/ this site too. I have an email addy and a myspace, and now am spending a lot of time on a medhelp support forum for all of my illnesses, for support. Im leaving up my profile this week, and then I am deleting it. Please contact me if you wish to keep in touch, thanx again for all of your prayers and friendship = )))) Jenn

I believe in Angels the kind that Heaven sends, I am surrounded by Angels, but I call them Friends. Lord wrap your sweet Love around my Friends.

Dear Lord, You know we all have problems, but today I want you to send out your comforting Angels to wrap their wings around all my BON friends and families who are suffering from depression, hunger, homelessness, joblessness, loneliness, and the battles of disease. Lord you said If we could have the faith as a grian of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place, and it shall remove: and nothing shall be impossible to you. I am beleiving that nothing is impossible to restore my friends health of body, minds, finances and any other obstacle that may be in their way of happiness and peace. In Jesus Name I pray. Amen

Wicked, you are such a strong and beautiful lady. I truly hope and pray for your recovery or at least remission. Hope to see you at the next BBBB on the 18th. hugs and smiles to you

"I AM Too blessed to be stressed!" The shortest distance between a problem and a solution is the distance between your knees and the floor. The one who kneels to the Lord can stand up to anything. Love and peace be with you forever, Amen.

Thought of the day....... A prayer a day, keeps the sadness away!! May it be me or others, Your soul is in good hands, As GOD watches over you.

For everyone who is in need .... I pray for your comfort and support and that each day is brighter than the day before.

My thoughts and Prayers are with Theresa. Serene, thank you so very much. Getting out as much as I can, makes me feel good. SkitzoKitty17 thoughts and Prayers for you... I still Pray for everyone everyday. It is a great feeling to know that people give and take in such a generous way. Everyone needs someone and I'm glad that I have met all of my BON friends. They are all great people.

I am truly happy to hear some good news Wicked. You looked great Sunday, hopefully a good sign. You are in my thoughts and prayers. God bless Hey everyone, My cousin Theresa was recently diagnosed with Leukemia and is going for a bone marrow transplant next week. Could you please say a little prayer for her that the transplant works.

Tons of positive thoughts going out to Wicked and to SKItty 17...and to anyone that needs them. This is supposed to be the season of miracles....Thats my story and I am sticking to it!!!! Wishing you all the very best and pls know you are thought of everyday!!!!

Sending many good thoughts and prayers to everyone in need of them.I hope the new year brings new hope and new fighting spirit.Much love and respect to everyone...Crickett SHC

Thats fantastic news Wicked........GOD bless you

Fantastic news Wicked and Jenn you are still amazingly strong, stay that way!!

Wicked, very good news!! Keep the strong faith and hope alive!! It will work for you, I know I am holding on tight.........Good news can keep on getting better. I know from experience getting labs done every month and comparing how far I have come from the past, it was amazing and a MIRACLE!! Now Im fighting a new devil, BUT I refuse to let it win....... God Bless you and route66 I agree the positive thinking does a lot more then ppl give credit. If you think or I should say SPEAK negativity you are giving it power whatever your belief or faith is.........Mine is of God and of there is a God, there is an Evil.......Ive lived it, I know it for me Keep the faith and positive thoughts and prayer going. The power is prayer is amazing!

the power of positive thoughts does work. i look at em daughter and the horrendous nightmare she been through but they choose to turn their lives around and only think positive things. the transformatuion has been amazing as i see them on a regular basis and know how their lives have changed. keep up this page and the mail you send em i know it helps me out tremendously!

Just a line to let everyone know that I got good news at my appoointment last tuesday. My white blood cell count has come down from 5800 to 4300. That was great news for me to hear. That means my amune system is trying to fight. I'm fighting to remember that I can live with this CLL for along time. So, one day at a time and all of your thoughts and prayers are being heard. I also pray for everyone else here, that Gods will is there for you also.

Just dropping an update for friends to read on my Dr appt. I have a lot of choices to make, and at least I have some time to make them. I have a procedure being done Jan 22nd. I am also waiting for another referral. I NEED 2 see this Dr before they will treat me. The chemo causes sever anxiety/depression, even suicidal tendencies. So I have be cleared by as shrink! So, there is a trial going on thru my Drs office and the trial is in its last stages. Already been approved by FDA. It works better, better results by adding this new drug to the others. Thing is while in a trial I don't know whether or not I am receiving the drug or a placebo. The treatment itself should be out in 2010. So I may just wait for that treatment all together. I can't get put on a liver TP list, unless I have at least tried the treatment and see how it workd. Because I need to be put on a liver TP list!! It can take up to 10 yrs, and that all has to be decided according to my health. Due to other health issues I may not be a good TP candidate? Dr says I have about 5-10 yrs of life left if I chose to not treat at all! Im only 37, sooooooo I have a lot to think about. I was so overwhelmed and exhausted when I came home from Drs I ate dinner and passed the F@#$ OUT!!! I am Def in the last stages and do not have the opportunity to sit around for too long and make a decision, but sice I have to have this test and waiting on the referral for a shrinky dink.......I have about 6 weeks to think. Thank you all for all of the support and prayer, and you are too in my thoughts and prayers....... Much Peace Jenn

Am sending positive thoughts and prayers to all my bros and sisters in their time of need.I am a firm believer in the miracles of healing, and of the power of positive energy! I am walking proof that miracles happen.May God bless you all, and bring peace to your troubled hearts. Much L&R!

I am coming on today to say thanks and to say I am praying for Em and her Daughter(s), all of you!!! I am also praying for all of my sisters on here, and thanking God for you and all of your support. This is a note of thx and positive thoughts and prayers to all of you on here. All of us go thru times in life where all we can focus on is our situation, but today I CHOSE to focus on my friends and Sisters instead. Brings gratitude and thanks to my heart.........Everyone of you on here Boys n Girls are in my thoughts and prayers tonight. Much Peace, Love and Blessings to all L&R, Jenn

Sending out my prayers to you, Em and your daughter. And to S kitty17....keep up the fight you have going! As hard as it is...being positive helps us all. As my friend Shep say.... Peace be with......

Hey from Kitty to another....know that my best wishes and whatever good karma I can get I send to you. I admire your spirit and your strength. That is an incredible trait in a human being. Especially since everybody focuses on other traits. Luv Ya kitty....Always in my thoughts, ok?

Today I pray for EM who has been and continues to go through so much. EM, you are a true power of example to stay positive when it would be so much easier to just give up and run the other direction. I enjoy reading what you have to say and absolutely love Ralph Marston's writings. May a Higher Power give you strength to get you through this trying time. Hope the doctors can help your dear daughter. Smiles across the miles. Claire

See all the stength you have GF!! Don't think I have ever seen you this determined before! YES , tragedy brings out the weaknesses in us but it also brings out all of our positive attributes we forgot were even there! Keep your chin up Jenn you're doing a fine job keeping a positive attitude!!!

PS, I thank Em my sweet sister for making a place like this to come to and vent and get support! It really helps to sign on here every once and awhile and see a positive thought or prayer to one another.........It tickles my heart = )))

Update more labs, more bad news..........I see my specialists for real this time on Friday the 12th this week, so until then Im just praying and educating myself with all I can to know what to talk to her about and making a list of questions! Im not here as much either because I made a website at medhelp.com and it is awesome! The support and the information to educate myself with al the knowledge I can and get all the statistics and articles, and links for all the info I need. I am so grateful I found it. The ppl there all are going thru what I am and or have already been where I am.........I will update you on Friday and I thank everyone for keeping me in their prayers Peace Jenn

Thank you so much chromekitty, from one kitty 2 another lol that really makes me feel better and purrrrrrrrr lol no in all reality I thank you very much for the kind words, thoughts and prayers.......and YES life deals us some stuff that we think we can't handle. In less then a week I put my emotions in order and decided now let me find out what I need to do, and I AM GOING TO FIGHT FOR MY LIFE! Im looking into liver transplants too now. I decided to stop the poor me, and start to fight to live = ))) Huggs Much Peace and love

definitely sending you out the best and warmest of wishes! I will give you whatever support I can. Sometimes we think we have it bad, and if you stop and listen you realize that there are others that arent as lucky. Thank you for allowing me to put things in perspective and to realize that if you can accept your reality and hold yourself accountable....I can do that to! Thank you for your strength and please know that you are added to my daily thoughts and prayers. I wish you peace....

Your strength continues to amaze me and you will remain in my thoughts and prayers.....hugs to you!

OUR PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU SWEETHEAT,GALA AND I WILL BE PRAYING FOR YOU. LOVE WILDCHILD AND GALA

Well thx Em BUT Unfortunately I have received very very bad news and I am very scared. I will know further details next week, BUT I am in the end stages with my liver and basically I am dying! It isn't a wekk or mos kind of thing. It is just when my liver decides to fail all toegether. I mean we are all dying, but mine is coming a lot sooner then I would have wanted it. It is a very painful sick and long death too! I have watched other die from liver failure. There is 5 stages and I was told yesterday I am at the end of the 4th stage! I am devastated cuz I know I did this to myself! With all the abuse in the past, my last OD is what did it..........See I know all about ODs and the damage is not necessarily going to show immediately! With your liver and kidneys it wil start to show up years later. Altho I already had liver disease, it was not active for 20 yrs, until I just abused my body to know end. So now I am depressed and torturing myself because my son may lose his mother way before her time should have been! I am being tested for kidney failure now too because my liver and pancreas are already shot, so my kidneys are working over time!!! So, I am having 4 other blood tests done on Monday and my Dr wants to see me asap as soon as the results come in the next day. Im trying to be positive. I dont feel that all I been thru that God would have kept me around all those times I was on respirators and Drs were telling my Mother to pull the plug and I miraculously awoke, that God brought me this far just to suffer an agonizing horrible death? I love you guys for keeping me in your prayers and Im more scared then I have ever been in my life right now, so plz keep em going....... Thx and Bless you all, PEACE Jenn

Jenn I can't take the credit for the sayings from Ralph Marston!!! Today is a special day, it would have been my son's 19th birthday so what you had to say reminded me of something that happened when he was born. His heart tests results came back and IMMEDIATELY they notified me. So I think your saying no news is good news could perhaps be true. Hang in there and keep up that strength that resides so powerfully inside you!!

Em that is beautiful sister!! You want to help me write my book? I am writing a very spiritual book to help others know that there is ALWAYS HOPE!! If anyone knows I am one that can be PROOF!!! and Em you h ave great way with words young lady!!!!! Prayers, hugs, peace, and love 2 all on this page Jenn

Em and shameless one thank you so much for the kind words! I haven't been on here in a bit, so I am catching up! I still haven't heard anything on the results, I look at it as no news is good new, BUT I am going to call tomorrow for my own peace of mind! It has been 10 days now so they have to know everything by now!! You all are great and thanks for being here for me, and the compliments too = ))) Much Love and Peace always Jenn

I love my job and treasure my old friends~! And I always enjoy reading your thouths emrldeyz~! ~MUAH~

What is it about this day that you love? What is it about this moment that you treasure? There is something within your life that compels you to know and experience even more of life. What is it, at the heart of things, that drives you so? What makes it so wonderful to float peacefully on a calm sea under the warm sun? Why does the beauty of a distant mountain peak touch your heart so profoundly? There is a reason why you have opinions about a wide range of matters large, small and in between. There is a guiding purpose at the heart of each sincere choice you make. As you dance with life each day, your steps follow a rhythm that stays true to the genuine person inside, no matter what else may or may not happen. Though you interact intimately with all that is around you, something within you is apart from it all, relishing the experience. Breathe deeply the sweet, fresh air of being. And keep dancing, as each unfolding moment brings a brand new verse of the song you've always known. -- Ralph Marston

we have a lot to do . a lot of work to do to give encouragement ; care ; courage our nation is in trouble . we have to get back to his house . his house is a house of prayer we are thankful yes yes yes but there is a since of sadness for many reasons loss of friends jobs homes soul mates sickness cancer yet we are survivers lets pray for everyone pray pray

Em, thank you so much for this page....I think we can all use some prayers and love from our friends. What you said before: " Pain is a silent epidemic. We never know who is hurting or why just by looking at them" is soooooo true!! So if you are ever talking to someone, and you sense pain in their voice, see it in their eyes, or feel it in their touch, please say a prayer for them. One can never have to many prayers said for them. And for you Em, your family, I say prayers for you. To you Lady Chief, a special "THANK YOU" for all you have done to help me thru this tough time, for being there, and for always answering when I called and needed to talk. And for your prayers. To all my other wonderful friends who have been here for me, and offered their prayers, I say THANK YOU to you too. And to everyone else out there who is living their own silent pain, whatever it may be, I say prayers for you in hopes that your pain goes away.

AM GIVING PRAYERS TO ALL AND THANKS TO THOSE WHO SERVE US IN THIS CRAZY WAR..JOYFULL..THANKFULL..LOVE TO ALL..

i am thankful for great freinds and wish everyone a happy thanksgiving!

emrideyz, thank you for starting something that is certainly needed on BON. As Twinspirit said, this is a wonderful place to share one's pain or even gratitude. Knowing one is not alone and is able to get some support if needed right here. Again, thank you for this wonderful site. Happy Thanksgiving to and everyone here.

Thank You twinspirit your words mean so much to me. Pain is a silent epidemic. We never know who is hurting or why just by looking at them. How do we know who to direct our strength to if our voices are not heard. I believe in the law of attraction....ya know, what goes around comes around. I need all the strength I can get at times and by offering it, it comes back ten fold. So I should be the one thanking you and everyone else on this page! Thank You!

emrldeyz you have created a wonderful thing here. we have all lost people and we have all felt the pain that comes with that. some more that others and some have felt it closer to home. I do believe this is a wonderful outlet for all our BON friends and your greatness shines thru for even thinking of this.I know it was a need you needed filled but darlin your an angel and all the others who come here and look for support and all the ones who come and give support to those in need are lucky to have such an outlet. I just want to personally thank you darlin. I have had losses that hurt but I give you full credit for your own strength within. and the strength i see in all these people below . god has given us each angels with each of you who have come to support and to those who need it... this looks like a place to ask for friends to hold you up when you need help. thanks is all I can say Emrldeyz keep that strength honey Twinspirit

Sixteen years ago I lost both my parents due to an auto accident. I miss them terribly but today I allow their memories to embrace me and I in turn embrace life with a passion. My best friend Cheryl lost her mom on January 30 and 9 days later lost her 32 year old daughter Jeanine to cancer. How she survived all of this, have no idea. I do know one thing everyone prayed for me when the chips were down and we prayed for Cheryl to help her through the most horrible time in her life. So for me good thoughts and prayers work. I continue to pray for all the ones suffering. We must also remember the families who suffer as much, maybe not physically but defiitely emotionally. An extra prayer for Wicked who was diagnosed with Leukemia. Life is too short not to stop and take time to smell the petals of life. If you have your health then you are wealthy. Take a look around you and be grateful for what you have and where you are today. One Day at A Time

I got your back Blue...... now and alwayz.......... L&R my friend ~ SpuDz

For all of you, especially Michele and Blue today.....Your purpose is to give the miracle of life a distinct voice. It is to know and to treasure moments of pure beauty for which there are no words. The challenges may be profound, and yet they cannot challenge or diminish your purpose. On the contrary, those challenges help you to understand and express your purpose more clearly.

I don't know how this going to turn out, but I want to thank all of my friends that have sent love and support! Not knowing can scare the hell out of ya, but with a great bunch of friends, I pray that i'll come out of this with flying colors. All of my L&R...Blue

May all who are filled with sadness be surrounded with the healing energy of love and light. May the light guide your way to peace... No illness or sadness can reside where the light of love shines brightly.I give this gift to all,and no one in this world is left out. We are all connected through the healing energy of love... Peace,In love and Light Z. Blessed be!

In Febuary, we found out my Dad had Cancer. On May 7th, we lost him. 3 months we stayed with him. The best 3 months of my life. For all those who are going through this, you have my prayers. That is what got my sisters and myself through this. Prayers, Sisters and Friends that care. God Bless. I'm going to add a picutre of my Dad and my girls, if that is ok.

Sending out positive thoughts to those in need to start your week off. Once you find that inner strength, keep going cause momentum is an unstoppable force. Once you've got it, keep using it, and keep going until you're amazed at what you've done.

Continued prayers, sister!

..and Jenn baby, you are never far from my mind. You have more strength than you even realize sister and even some left over to offer others. Believe it...it's true....

Sweetie I am glad to hear I offer a glimmer of hope into your world. Losing someone is never easy but in time the pain eases and the memory lives on in your heart forever and can even make you smile! After losing my husband and my son and the challenges I face with my daughter hope always whispers.....one more try....and it's that hope and the experience of having been through it already, that always gets me through. I am sending out HUGE positive thoughts for you today......everything always eventually ends up ok it's just a matter of time.....

When do you get the results of the biopsy, Jenn? Of course you will be fine... you are one tough b****! So, the idea of this website is "positive thoughts and prayers"... I haven't had many of those in the past month, but it's the great people here that have made me realize that there is always something to be happy about. Em, you are a bright spot in an otherwise dark world, you give me hope that there is happiness at some point in the future. M*, you have been here for me through thick and thin.. and I love you always. T* and Bob, even though I don't know either one of you very well, you have given yourselves to me, given me a shoulder to cry on without expecting anything in return. And thanks to the others who have offered support... luv you all.

Had the biopsy today. I am thinking positive and have a good feeling! Thx for the prayers all! Im just sore and groggy now, but will be fine in a cpl days............PEACE Jenn

The capacity to care is the thing which gives life its deepest meaning and significance.

OK I am BACK!!!! My acct was deleted!! Thxx so much wicked.......I will repeat what I had here cuz I am more anxious now that it is 2 days away, was up all night worrying........Im having a liver biopsy Friday morn. I am being tested for liver cancer and a rare rheumatic disease called skleraderma. I watched my grandmother die from it. It mummifies your body and all major organs. It paralyzes them, and my upper stomach is already paralyzed. I already have RA that is the sister disease. I am 37 and my Rheumatoid profile is very high for my age!!! I am real anxious considering I live in chronic pain and fight day to day just to get outta bed.........I can use all the prayer and positive thoughts, whatever your belief is. I am very SCARED! and I also will be sure to pot the results......Thanx my friends Peace, Jenn

I do feel for ALL who had to let a deeply loved one go. My incredible loving spouse was taken with pancreas cancer at a young 52, three yrs. ago, still miss what he spoiled me with. NOW, I try to share that every day! Bubba re-enforced that, driving me even more to spread the forever hugs...I have a very special girlfriend close to me, 45, who is fighting cancer now. Please continue sharing the comfort we ALL need, giving them strength. With Arms Wide Open!

Well, SkitzoKitty (Jenn), I wish the very best for you and my thoughts and prayers are with you.

I have been keeping quite a few friends in my prayers lately for them to have some peace in their lives over losses, and family member illnesses........ for whom ever wants to send sum prayers my way I am having serious tests this week.......... 1 for cancer and another for a strange disease that I watched kill my Grandmother, it mummifies & paralyzes your organs and so far my stomach muscles are paralyzed, so I am being tested for the disease. I already have it's sister disease RA. Im also having a piece of my liver tested for cancer on friday, A LIL WORRIED RIGHT NOW!!! Thanks to all of my wonderful friends I am grateful for the support Peace ' Jenn

My thoughts and prayers are with all in need.

God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but, He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.

This week my sister had a lump removed from her breast which showed cancerous cells and will be having more surgery to remove the area that was around the lump as that showed precancerous conditions. I am very concerned and would like to have her included in any prayer requests. Thank you and I will be praying for your requests as well.

I, Unfortunatly, Have lost both my parents to Cancer. My Father at the age of 12, and my Mother just last year. I have found comfort and love in my friends and sister these trying times. Thank you to all the help i recieved. I wish (and will pray) for everyone else that is battling sickness and sorrow a fast and great recovery. Remember, You are not alone in these terrible times.

hi everyone the most important thing is people each other it only takes a few minutes to get to know someone and to care for them but a little longer to build a long lasting true freindship so always be kind to people if posssible they are carring a heavy load and pray to god in heaven for help on the earth read and pray

My Dad has been battling diabetes for years and has had several close calls over the past year. He was in the hospital for three months over the summer and then was hospitalized again about two weeks ago and we almost lost him again. He's finally out of ICU and starting to act like his old stubborn self. He's 81 years old, blind and can't walk...but hanging in there. I'd like to thank everyone who has kept him in their hearts, thoughts and prayers. I'm not one to think much of God as a supreme being...but maybe I'm wrong.

Though I cant say that I am having any tramatic experiences happening in my life right now, people very close to me have lost people they love dearly. My parents are getting along in years and each dealing with their own sicknesses, but THANK GOD, they are stubborn and refuse to let it get them - they definitely have a faith in a stronger being. My thoughts and best wishes go to each of you experiencing lifes uncertainties...

In Sept of 1970 I was 13 years old, and I lost my mother to domestic violence, she was protecting me of my stepfather (evil man) he turned his anger on my mother who was 6 months pregnant. She died a few days later of the beating. For the longest time I blamed myself it was my fault, but having 3 children myself I would lay down my life for my kids as well. I would just like to say thank you to my mother, her name was Marlene. My Mom drove a Indian motorcycle when I was little. I am learning to be a positive person, because you are what you think. May God Bless everyone on this page that is suffering. With God's grace may he comfort you and heal you.

Thank you to all that are sending me wishes and prayers, for my illness CLL. I beleive in my higher power and what prayers can do for people. The poem that I posted, is one that I wrote when my father pasted. I hoped that it might help alittle. May GOD bless you all!!

To all of the loved ones that have lost there loved ones. May peace be with you!!!! Our Way With all the love around you, And the time of giving in; Let the guiding light surround you, To that love that waits within. Your days were prescious moments, That we all had time to share; The happiest of times together, You take with you up there. For all of us a peacefull time, No more pain will you endore; The ride to above on angels wings, A time that you may soar. We all will say good-bye now, And let you slip away; But, in our hearts and minds now, You are always here to stay. Copyright ©2005 Wanda L. Mix

Only when we give joyfully, without hesitation or thought of gain, can we truly know what love means.Leo Buscaglia... Bubba knew how to do all of the above and as said..w/o hesitation

Give today a purpose -- a rich, wonderful, meaningful purpose. And live life at its best. -- Ralph Marston

I have read each comment carefully and see the pain each has endured and see the healing already taking place. Words can not describe how I feel today after almost losing my teenage daughter several times in the past year and as recently as 2 weeks ago. Tomorrow is her 17th birthday. I am keeping my thoughts positive for her and everyone else who needs it. Prayer goes out to each one of you today as you continue your journey through life.

God Bless us all and all our angels watching over us.

I lost my 20 yr old baby brother "Ice" to suicide in 90, my grandfather to a heart attack a few months later, and great grandfather the same year. They say these things happen in threes so now now when something bad happens I hang onto my ass and say a prayer not only to God but to the Goddess as well because that was something I never want to even come close to reliving. I didn't think I'd ever make it through but I did that and a whole lot more and have become stronger for it. I also want to add a prayer for a fallen bro- Michael Peterson, that we lost on a poker run a few months back. RIP Mike. May you forever ride with the angels.

I'm tryin', really tryin'.............

Sometimes the heart can feel like it's been ripped wide open...the pain almost unbearable and indescribable. You think you'll never laugh again....and when you do you actually feel a little guilty...But, someday, your heart will heal. You never "get over it" and God forbid you ever should. You learn to live with it and carry on. It's a chapter in the book of your life. It becomes a part of who you are. The rest of the world doesn't stop because our world seems to. The paper still gets delivered...the garbage truck still comes...life goes on even though we, in our grief, can't understand how that can be. But the heart does heal, and I remember how it felt for me. One day I realized that the raw gaping hole that I thought would always be in my heart had changed. The only way I could describe the feeling was to say that it felt like that raw, gaping hole had healed and turned into a little pocket where I could carry my little angel forever. My heart goes out to those hurting....know that love will carry you through.

When we lost our 5 year old daughter someone sent us this poem. It has helped me through a lot of hard times. I hope it can help someone else through their hard times. ~ Love - Gratitude ~ The agony is so great... And yet I will stand it. Had I not loved so very much I would not hurt so much. But goodness knows I would not Want to diminish that precious love By one fraction of an ounce. I will hurt, And I will be grateful to the hurt For it bares witness to The depth of our meanings, And for that I will be Eternally grateful. ~ Author Unknown ~

Love is not knowing that you'll never go,only that I wish you didn't have to... gilbran

Life is short an we need to tell our riends an loved ones we care an stay close together.. keep the faith!

Too many losses for me to list. I pray for those that are living today, the families of the loved ones who have left this earth to be in a better place. My thoughts and prayers are for my friends who are struggling with this horrific disease cancer. I pray for Nancy who has just had a Stem Cell Transplant, her last lease on life. I also pray for the sick and suffering alcoholics and addicts who are out there and cannot surrender or trust in God to help them.

"Guard well your spare moments. They are like uncut diamonds. Discard them and their value will never be known. Improve them and they will become the brightest gems in a useful life." Ralph Waldo Emerson The friends I have made on the BON site are my brightest gems in my life. Thank you all. Bubba is flying with the angels now & not in any pain. We are the ones left here to grieve.

For Peterbilt ~ Sergio ~ Bubba ~ and all those we miss... “You can shed tears that he is gone, or you can smile because he has lived. You can close your eyes and pray that he'll come back, or you can open your eyes and see all he's left. Your heart can be empty because you can't see him, or you can be full of the love you shared. You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday, or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday. You can remember him only that he is gone, or you can cherish his memory and let it live on. You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back. Or you can do what he'd want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.” David Harkins

"Enough" I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun. I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting. I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger. I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting. I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess. I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye. They say, it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but an entire life to forget them.

As long as there is even one person who holds fond memories and love in their heart for those who have passed, they live on forever.

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.Bubba's memory will always be with us.

We never know what life has in store for us. We all have pain and sorrow. I feel very lucky to have met so many wonderful people on this site. I truly appreciate that we stay connected, thru distance and day-to-day activities. I am grateful for the strength we can generate thru our communication, and for waterproof mascara!

dont know those you speak of but at this time sending out a prayer to my best freind john who diagnosed with cancer yesterday.

Friends True friends are like diamonds, priceless and rare. False friends are like Autumn leaves, found everywhere. Let's toast to a friend of mine, whom I've found true blue. Who loves me for what I am, not for what I do. Fair faced friends are plentiful, you can find them all about. But give me the pal that I can go to, when I'm all down and out. -anon.

This year has been the most fun time of my life, even being "between jobs"! LOL At least you guys fill my life with good friendship and, most of all, debauchery!!LOL Who'd have thought an online bond like this could form!? I don't know if our non-BON friends and family understand the bond we have, but it has been a wonderful ride, and thanks my friends! :)

"That though the radiance which was once so bright be now forever taken from my sight.Though nothing can bring back the hour of splendor in the grass, glory in the flower. We will grieve not, rather find strength in what remains behind." William Wordsworth

okay where to start! In the beginning there wasn't BON and there wasn't this close knit crew named CMF! All of a sudden I found brothers and sisters I never ever dreamed of having! Now there is LIFE! No matter where each and everyone of us is from or where we are going Positive Prayers and Thoughts will follow all! To my friend Peterbuilt ~ ride in the clouds followed (or lead by) my brother Bubba and bringing it all together Sergio! For those who suffer without definition ~ Kevin, Connie, George, Sherry, Maggie, Angel and EM ~ those you have lost will not be forgotten ~ the pain you feel will never go away ~ it will just be less often! For those who survived through prayer and positive thoughts may your healing and self preservation prevail ~ GOD BLESS US EVERYONE! ~ amen!

Today I am sending positive thoughts to my friend Bubba's family and all his friends. We have all encountered a great loss. Life is beautiful and joyful, and it is only because life can be so beautiful that it can sometimes be so sad. In grief there is also, strangely, a component of joy. When we are sad it is because we care so very much. Sadness is painful, and yet the absence of sadness would mean an utter and hopeless emptiness much worse than any pain. The joy you have known stays with you always, even in times of loss -- especially in times of loss. Indeed, it is the joy that makes the loss hurt so much. Yet that joy is never used up or canceled out. It is still a part of you, though the conditions and the relationships from which it came may have changed. It is still with you. And no one can ever take it away. Ultimately, the joy is stronger than the pain. The pain may not ever go away completely, yet it will become more bearable as the joy continues to grow stronger with each passing moment. Not only is sadness a genuine expression of joys already experienced, it intensifies the joys to come. The sun always seems brighter after days and days of rain. The joy and beauty of life mean even more after experiencing the pain of sadness. When you care enough to know true and profound sadness, it's a positive affirmation of life that has no equal. -- Ralph Marston